Change
Things need to change for me.
Not because things are going badly, but because things are going so well.
For so long, I’ve been in survival mode – trying to get through my day, my week without having major meltdowns, stress reactions, or depression. I’ve been focused on coping, and only coping.
And it’s been going swimmingly, I am happy to report. Which is probably why I am feeling like my usual routine is no longer working for me, so much so that I no longer feel like participating in it. It’s a routine that served its purpose while I was sick & recovering, and for that I am grateful, but now it is time to switch from survival mode to…some other mode. “Living mode” or something like that.
You might see less of me. This blog might change. In fact, if WordPress gets its act together and actually answers my plea for help in importing this blog to WP, this blog might be moving to entirely new digs. We’ll see. I’m not totally convinced it’s something I want to do yet, but it’s a possibility I’m open to.
But if I’m not around visiting, it’s not because I don’t love you all. You know I do. I just need to step out for a while and start living purely for the pleasure of living, for the thrill of being alive.
I have no idea how I’m going to go about changing things up. I have no idea at all. I just know something needs to change.
NB: the picture is of Tulip Falls, a beautiful spot near where we were camping.
The camping Flickr set is here.
Wandering Coyote 
I’ve never been so happy to be abandoned lol!! This is great, wonderful news WC, I’m thrilled that you want to get out and engage with the world some more, even if it means the vitual world has to go on without you. You have been such a support to me this year, and to many others, and I love hearing your positive and happy tone. You go, girl, with blessings xxx
Good for you girl. I totally support your stepping back and stepping out. There are days when I too look out and wonder what it would be like but its either too cold or too hot or the mummies are surrounding the yard. So I turn around, put on some socks and let the cat out to mess with the mummies when all I WANT to do is pick up my sword and fight the evil myself. Promise you will say hello every once in awhile.
No need to apologize. Change can be a good thing. Do whatever you need to do to make YOU happy and try not to worry about us. I’m glad to hear that you’re going to be getting out there and doing rather than just being. Now, if only I can take that advice! 😉
This is the best news I’ve heard all year!! I’m so happy for you!
I need to break out of survival mode too. Like we’ve said before, it’s hard to do on a limited budget. 😦
Sounds like your time away gave you a fresh perspective. Good on ya for that.
Like all of those you have commented before me, I wish you all the best and I at least, would not mind one little bit if you should peek back from time to time just to say hi.
I’ll be thinking of you WC.
Thanks for all the great posts.
This is great news Coyote!
What have I always said… Life is for living!!!
However, remember to tell me (and all us readers, actually) WHERE you will have moved the blog, so that I can still read your words and look at your wonderful pictures (and laugh out loud at your asides and comments).
Oh by the way, I have just come back from your Flickr set of this camping trip.
Two things:
1) such gorgeous landscape and pcitures!
2) the food: well, Coyote, next time you go I’m coming too!
Great idea. I can’t speak for everyone, obviously, but I think we spend too much time in front of these keyboards. Get out and enjoy some of the beautiful surroundings in your town. Cheers!
This is the BEST news I’ve heard in a month full of Sundays, WC!
It’s so great things are going so well for you! Hell, we just had the conversation that you need to do what’s right for your well-being. Do as much or as little as you want, and we’ll be happy 🙂
Wow. Amazing photo. Wish I were there!!!
So glad there are good changes coming about your way.
Truly fantastic news, WC! Go out and live, have fun and enjoy. It is so rewarding when all of your hard work towards healing pays off. You deserve to take in all the wonderful things that the world has to offer.
Beautiful photo to go along with your plans. You’ve got to keep things moving forward. Sounds like a very positive choice.
I am so happy to hear this! Go for it girl!Judith
Wow what happened to you while you were our camping.. I missed that post and I will get to it. I have been busy doing life. I sort of found a job but havent posted about it yet. I want to see how long it lasts. I am working through a temp agency and those can be a hum dinger of jobs.. this ones easy for now though..
Change, especially when you choose it, can be so invigorating. May you find the changes that you need to make you feel more complete and positive.
And camping near such a beautiful spot certainly never hurts to clear the mind.
That waterfall looks so peaceful.
Thing about WP is you can always come back here if you find you don’t like it. I might be able to help with whatever the importing problem is if you want to email me about it.
Going to look at your camping pics now…